2 more years and I’ll be done with high school. I can’t believe it.

I actually just want to get through the summer and just push through my junior year and do so much better than my freshman and sophomore year. I want to push through and just go on to my senior year.

I just want to get to know a guy whom I am attracted to then kiss him.
If I go to the beach this summer and meet that guy, I will do this.

I WANT TO JUST HAVE A NICE FUCKING APARTMENT TO MYSELF THAT I CAN DECORATE AND STUFF AND INVITE WHO EVER I WANT AND DO WHATEVER I WANT, HOWEVER I WANT.
I just want to graduate and start my “life” but I know I should cherish today and the days to come until that ever happens.
My future interests me so much and leaves me so curious.

I just wish sometimes, I could have two days and one might with you. I want to spend time with you, just you & I. Doing things, random, fun things. Talking about things, about life, etc.
I just want to spend time with you. But in this case, it’s too much to ask for.
I wish some things were just a tad different.

For some time, there’s truly never a day when you’re not on my mind. I dont think about you as much as before, but I do think about you.
Always. And it kind of bugs me because I’m always playing scenarios in my head that will never, in the days to come, will ever happen.

It was such a sad day. The only good thing about today was that you were found. I tried to hold back my tears, but I just couldn’t. I don’t care if I hardly knew you. I have been told that you were an amazing human being and I will take everyone’s word for it.

Man, you had so much going for your future, for you. Full scholarship to East Carolina? That’s such a wonderful thing to hear. I wish you were still here. Still here to continue living that awesome life you have. Still here to follow through with plans to achieving goal by goal. 

I just wish they found you alive. I kept every bit of my hope that there would have been a miracle, to find you passed out on shore or something. Or just..find you simply alive. 

There has been too many deaths at our school, all around Williamsburg that shouldn’t have happened. Take care up there with the angels and save a few seats for the rest of us for later. 
Rest in Paradise Trevor, Rachel, and Maggie. 

I’m crying right now. I woke up to pee and ever since I found out about what happened, that’s been the only thing that’s been on my mind the most since. We aren’t friends but we are acquaintances. I would see you walk the hallways a lot.
The fact that no one knows where you are kills me so bad inside. You’re out there. I know you are, but you’re helpless because there is no one out there. We must find you. The sadness I see on Twitter is nothing compared to what I will see at school later on. I’m putting myself in other peoples shoes, such as your friends and family. And it hurts because I could not imagine losing my best friends.
I hope you’re safe Trevor. Please let their be a miracle, come back to us.
I just really hope. I can’t stop crying.

I honestly do not know what I would do if I ever lost someone, by death, so close to me. I would much rather losing them as a healthy, alive person that way I know they are still living life regardless of what happened between me and whoever.
Life is an important thing to me & seeing anyone depart to take their steps to Heaven hurts me more than anything. Even if it is a stranger. That person has a family and goals to achieve. They have feelings, they’ve had struggles, they’re a human being who’s heart & life should be well respected. I don’t plan on hearing that I’ve lost someone I love dearly anytime soon. I wish I would never have to ever hear it, but realistically, that will happen because it’s laugh. So I try and value mine as much as possible because it is true, you honestly do live once and you have to make everything count. Tomorrow is not guaranteed so take advantage of today.

I want to drift away from so many things and people. I’m becoming a careless person about people who don’t deserve my attention. I’m not trying to be conceited or cocky or anything along those lines, but I’m tired of giving +100% to people while I’m receiving 50% or less from them.